brainstorm about website (neocities)

[d3bansen]

Hi! I'm not sure how many people will read this, but I've been writing in this blog without making a big deal about if people read it or not. I didn't mean to do this introduction, but when it comes to changes of things other people enjoy then I become quite nervous.

It's been a year since my last theme, the brown one, and it's not the "theme" that troubles me but the design itself. It looks untidy and even I (YO) the person who is behind it doesn't enjoy looking at it too much, and we are talking just about the index. What I thought today was that I should probably stick to just one theme, one design, but a very beautiful and that looks that I put all my effort on it. Of course I've been doing this for my html and css for the past 2 years, but I want something else, something that feels like me, and that always seem to mess me up, since I don't think people really enjoy what I truly want to share.

First of all I have to came up with the design, I have rough sketches and ideas already, I've also wrote some html and css, but it doesn't feel enough. The colors mess with my head as well, for me it feels like wearing clothes, the sizes and textures make me wear clothes I don't feel comfortable with, but to look pretty I need to endure this sizes and textures, and I become tired. (Funfact about me: I don't wear shoes in my house, but I thik this is a normal thing to do? I don't know, tell me about you.) I want something simpler, but that looks fun as well, all I want to is for me to have fun when I look at it, to want to read my own things, to share my happiness and be happy doing it, and it's always seemed such a difficult thing to do.

I try to do all of this without thinking about what other people think, I'm working that with my art as well (although I haven't draw anything in almost a month), and seriously, what a hard thing to do when I've been feeding on the acceptance of other people on the web since I'm a kid. Coming back to this place, I want it to feel refreshing, like it was before, a place where I'm just myself, and socializing is in second or third place in my priorities, that is my ideal.

That's why dreamwidth has become such a comforting place to write on. I don't feel pressure from myself in here, I write mostly to myself, like I said in the beginning, it's even surprised me that people read my posts!

Oh well, coming back about my website, I'm a simple gal on the inside, maybe I should stick with that.

I've been thinking about making it gray even, I really love the color grey (is it a color?), but then I think, colors are such a wonderful thing, I want to be colorful as well! This is my struggling on mixing colors, that is such a hard thing to do and my computer's screen show the colors way different than what it really looks like, that's also difficulty when I try to come up with designs and colors.

I think that's all for now, but last thing in my mind: The content should be more important than the face of it, face should be a second place priority! And that doesn't mean that it isn't important!

Thank you very much.

Comments

[d3bansen]

Thank you very much! It has always fascinated me the creativity one can have when having a personal site, and writing html and css is so much fun! It's kind of addicting for me. Being able to do so much with so little has always made me incredibly happy.