discouraging future?

[d3bansen]

Bahaha I had a bad grade today, noot that bad, but I've always had the best grades in school, I knew this would happen, getting "Almost bad grades" isn't something I'm used to. My friends say it's normal sometimes, but not in a encouraging way lol I know they are better than me in this kind of stuff, I feel like my head is full of cement and I get so so nervous.

I think I'm being more dramatic than I should be, my family says so, but what if I don't get better? It can't be, I'm suppose to work in this kind of stuff... for the rest of my life too! I can't be failing when I'm just starting (I'm not, but I feel like that). I wanted to get this out of my chest, so I can continue studying... Ah, I really feel so embarrassed when I have to ask for help, I feel pathetic, no one ever helped then, I shouldn't need help now, I don't get it, why my brain refuses to learn, is probably because I forgot how to do it in the first place. And even if I ask for help, I know they will think bad of me, because I always had it sooo easy to have good grades, why should I need more grades, you know? Something like that is what my family says, but the moment I don't get a good grade is my fault alone, aaah, this is so cringe! LOL I can't keep on writing about this.

Did you get the news? Kasane Teto on SynthV! OMG!